pleasure

This is just a little somethin somethin, a shout out to God because I am so thankful that I am no longer bound to a small group. At CBU, if we have a certain amount of schoolarship, then it is manditory to travel in a small group on Sundays around leading "worship." It is possible that God recieves praise, but I cannot say that it is biblical. In these groups, I have experienced a lot of good things, but enough heart ache to make it a growing experience. But anyways, this summer i have had nightmares and woken up from them with a cold sweat because in my dream i was put in a group. I have prayed that God would release me from this, and He has! He is so good. I am free to fellowship now at Sandals every Sunday. I think that the decrease in stress from this might give me 5 more years of life.

Here is a picture of my fellow RA staffers before our leadership banquet that we had tonight. God is abundantly and exceedingly my pleasure and I delight in serving him this year!

come, I will give you rest...

"And I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

Whenever anything begins to disintegrate your life with Jesus Christ, turn to Him at once and ask Him to establish rest. Never allow anything to remain which is making the dis-peace. Take every element of disintegration as something to wrestle against, and not to suffer. Say - Lord, prove Thy consciousness in me, and self-consciousness will go and He will be all in all. Beware of allowing self-consciousness to continue because by slow degrees it will awaken self-pity, and self-pity is Satanic. Well, I am not understood; this is a thing they ought to apologize for; that is a point I really must have cleared up. Leave others alone and ask the Lord to give you Christ-consciousness, and He will poise you until the completeness is absolute.

The complete life is the life of a child. When I am consciously conscious, there is something wrong. It is the sick man who knows what health is. The child of God is not conscious of the will of God because he is the will of God. When there has been the slightest deviation from the will of God, we begin to ask - What is Thy will? A child of God never prays to be conscious that God answers prayer, he is so restfully certain that God always does answer prayer.

If we try to overcome self-consciousness by any common-sense method, we will develop it tremendously. Jesus says, "Come unto Me and I will give you rest," i.e., Christ-consciousness will take the place of self-consciousness. Wherever Jesus comes He establishes rest, the rest of the perfection of activity that is never conscious of itself.

-Oswald Chambers


It is amazing how He loves me. How He calms my soul and gives me rest. rest. rest. rest.
It will be alright dear child. I am big enough to solve the problems of the world.
That is what I hear. That is the truth I live by.

i stink sometimes

stink- to be very unpleasant, contemptible or scandelous
Do you ever have one of those days when you walk away from one conversation thinking, "wow, I really can't say anything right. I really want to love people and I just stink at it?" Many times I see why people respond the way they do to put up walls for defense. I want to be a catalyst for change, a hand free to serve and a heart willing to love. People are taxing. Sarcasm wanes on my creative responses. Sometimes people just tire me out.
I feel like this is the part where I say that I know that this is all for some deep analogy of relating to following Christ. God is here in the midst of this I know, but I feel like all of my offers are shabby, offering them to others who don't want them even. This post is not meant for self pity or self guilt. Today is just one of those days that I wish I could love people better. I need some help with this Lord.

addictions

right now i am in my summer school, class contemporary health issues, and we are talking about additions. my teacher says that addictions are things that you depend on that are bad for you. for real, thats exactly what she said. you know, lately i can't stop eating sugar and i think i might be addicted because i know sugar is bad for me. i should really stop but i don't know how. i just need, i just need....SUGAR!

maybe i can't stop eating sugar because i shouldn't be in boring summer school. who knows. it's all summer school's fault.

oh, and here are some of the beautiful faces that i get to live with next year. yea!

I'm an ear. I like being an ear.

What are you good at?

Well, after yesterday's sermon by Pastor Matt Brown from Sandal's Church, I had to do some thinking. It is true that God has gifted us all differently in order to reflect Christ more brilliantly, but how many times are we educated and prepared beyond our own obedience? It seems as though I fall under this too. For me, it is easy to desire prestige and hope that someone will see potential in me someday. However though, serving others means seeing their potential as I am learning along side them.
So, he also talked about those who were gifted as "hands" that were trying to serve as the "heart" or "feet." My old youth pastor's wife Nancy is the nicest lady and has such compassion and mercy in her genuine concern for others. She's a heart. I on the other hand, like to listen. Maybe it is because I have a horrible memory, but you can tell me a story twice and it won't bother me. So, I'm an ear. I also like to help people find direction. I don't know what part this is, but hate to see people feeling lost. So that said, instead of worrying about next year, I am going to choose to serve the needs that I can. Matt also said that we are educated beyond our own obedience. This is true, and being that it is true, we should ban laziness, instead serving our God because He deserves it. There is never a moment in life it is okay to choose to serve ourselves because of our own laziness; He is always deserving.

tear

how sad. i just typed a really fun post and it went to the never-never land of the world wide web...

just another...

here is a even cooler picture of some guitars for today. This wall is full of guitars...

Other than that, I am just getting ready for the fall. Cottage 20 and 21 RA...Yay! Shhh, don't tell but I am a little scared. Anyone been an RA and have any suggestions?

Peace

Property of Hard Rock

For those of you who love the show The Simpsons, check this out:

lame entry

It is really funny how much I miss technology sometimes and in the last week, I have had very little opportunities to post. However, the fun and amazing sites I have seen have been so beautiful that it wouldn't do the creator justice.
Right now I am in Tahoe with the family and questioning whether I should try my first 5k with my cool new kicks. Eventually I'd like to do a marathon and someday a full iron man, but that is in the distance. They have a race here on Saturday and I might just have to try it out. Start out small you know? Well, I also have some great pictures, but no way to add them to this post. So, this will just have to suffice in saying keep posted...