i stink sometimes

stink- to be very unpleasant, contemptible or scandelous
Do you ever have one of those days when you walk away from one conversation thinking, "wow, I really can't say anything right. I really want to love people and I just stink at it?" Many times I see why people respond the way they do to put up walls for defense. I want to be a catalyst for change, a hand free to serve and a heart willing to love. People are taxing. Sarcasm wanes on my creative responses. Sometimes people just tire me out.
I feel like this is the part where I say that I know that this is all for some deep analogy of relating to following Christ. God is here in the midst of this I know, but I feel like all of my offers are shabby, offering them to others who don't want them even. This post is not meant for self pity or self guilt. Today is just one of those days that I wish I could love people better. I need some help with this Lord.